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So.. this is me then

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Berkshire, United Kingdom
Not much point in writing about myself seen as how that's what my blog will be about but heres some background information: I'm blunt & direct and some people can't handle it. I don't sugar coat. Too many people around me have died or had awful things happen to them and so I've become somewhat immune to shock and sometimes seem cold towards others. I've had too much pain in my life to go out of my way to affect or hurt others. Life is too short and I don't ever want people to hurt or be scarred the way I have been. Life is better now than it has been in a long time and I think I'm finally learning to love, trust and live again.

Saturday, 31 January 2015

Lazy Day, random thoughts...


Today I had what is referred to in the retail world as a miracle: a Saturday off work! 

Good job as well, The rest time is definitely needed. I'm not feeling any worse today but don't know if that's a good or bad sign... 
Pretty much spent the day on the sofa in another soft blanket that Boyf got for me LAST Christmas (I have a serious penchant for soft things: blankets, socks, pyjamas, teddies etc Boyf coincidently shares this obsession, there's every possibilty that we may have a problem)!

Also, every week I buy breakfast bars to take to work and today I thought "why am I spending this money?" So I made 'strawberry breakfast flapjacks'.. Well, it's not like I had anything better to be doing! 
It's pretty much oats, a little butter for colour, honey & an egg to bind it all together, laid on a baking tray with strawberry jam smothered all over, covered with another layer of the oat mixture, lightly dusted with caster sugar and baked in a medium oven for half an hour or until the oats become golden brown. 
Not a strenuous or complicated 'recipe' by any stretch of the imagination but yummy nonetheless! 
Maybe next time I could squish a banana into the base layer of oats... Mmmm bananas and honey!  
So let's see how that's going to taste with my morning Starbucks tomorrow morning. 

One of the worst things about being poorly is that you have to stay warm & rest. It makes me stir crazy! I want to get out the house! But know that if I'd gone out today, I'd have over stretched myself and probably wouldn't be able to work tomorrow. Although whilst at work in the morning, today's sofa snoozing will be  appreciated as I will be longing for it haha!

So now I'm in a yummy bubble bath, waiting on Fruit Jar (Dad) to cook a meatball bolegnese! Can't wait! Going to need hot sauce in mine though - clear these air ways! 

After dinner will be my favourite part of today though, Boyf is coming to collect me for a night of snugs, hot chocolate & Celebrity Big Brother!!!!! 

As a side note, I can't wait to get my crosstrainer over to my place, it's sending me loopy not being able to go on it every night!!

Friday, 30 January 2015

Waaaah!!!!!

Spent the whole day in bed today having caught my Dad's cold! >_< 
I'm trying to nip it in the bud before it gets too bad as I don't want to take any time off work. 
So I'm eating lots of Manuka honey, fruit & veg, staying warm, getting lots of rest and of course dosing up with paracetamol & ibuprofen. 
What would be perfect right now is a Lush bath bomb bath... The Christmas Eve bubble bar would be SOOO amazing! But I'd have to go over to my Dad's to have a bath and I don't want to pick up any more of his infectious germs lol! 
Instead, I'm curled up on my bed in my enormous, soft moo cow blanket that Boyf got me for Christmas watching Come Dine With Me. 
Rock star lifestyle or what?! - don't be jel haha! 
I'm gonna go feel sorry for myself some more now... :((

Thursday, 29 January 2015

Long time, no see!



Wow, forgot about this blog! It popped up on my favourites and I thought, hey, let's have a look! 
So much has changed since I last posted in 2010! 
My life has had a total 180!!! 

I've been working for The Perfume Shop for what will be a year on 2nd February. I've been striving to work for this company since I was 16 and finally got in - straight in at management level too haha! 
I'm comfortable with the amount of responsibility I have on my shoulders and it's a very good stepping stone for moving up within the company or moving on to another. 
My LinkedIn is always blowing up with offers for interviews with other companies so I can't be in a bad position. :) Good Times! 

My personal life is entirely different too! I rent a room in a house a couple of roads down from my Dad. It sounds pointless but it's nice to have a little place that's just for me - my little sanctuary where nobody can stress me out. I can watch what I like on tv, I can eat what I want, I can pluck my eyebrows, paint my nails, do facemasks, have an early night, a late night - ANYTHING I WANT!!!! and nobody can say otherwise! Mwahahaha!!! 
I enjoy going to my Dad's for dinner a couple of nights a week and staying at my boyfriend's house but it's nice to have my little place - it's like the place I keep my sanity, and when everything feels crazy, I can go back to my cocoon and it's alright again...
So essentially, I pay to stay sane each month! Good investment I say! 

I'm about to turn 27 which is... Nice... :/ 
Things are clicking into place nicely at the moment though so I'm hoping my life is going to plan for once. 

I have a gorgeous boyfriend - although we do row lol (what couple doesn't), we love each other more than anything in the world. Sometimes I think that might be why we argue. We're both arguing for the relationship but we're fighting each other instead of everything else. It's healthy to a point though, it means we're communicating - but Lord he knows how to push my buttons haha! 
We'd do anything for each other and I know it's him & I against the world, we just have to find that balance so we don't actually forsake the world and live in our own little bubble haha! <3

We are looking forward to our 5th consecutive visit to Cyprus this year, so we are living frugally to save as much as we can as fast as we can (whilst also saving for a mortgage deposit).

I can't wait for summer - I'm bloody cold! 

So that's how things are currently shaping up for me. 

Hopefully I won't forget about this blog and will post again in the near future. I'm not bothered whether it's read by anybody besides me, it's nice to see for myself how far I have come in 4 years! 


Monday, 27 December 2010

Crimbo

So... That's Christmas out of the way for another year. Back to work tomorrow... Christmas day was family, I fell asleep about half 5 - oops! Woke up just as boyfriend was putting dinner on the table, bless him, he'd cooked the whole thing himself, it was sooo yummy!! Fell asleep again and woke up at half 8 then had some dessert and went to bed at half 10! - LIGHT WEIGHT!!!

Boxing day - stayed in, muched about with presents and did the washing up.

Today - Went into town and got the links taken out of boyfriend's watch, did a little after Christmas shopping, ie bread, milk, cereals.
Watching Casper at the moment, finished all the washing up, work clothes all clean and dried, another load of laundry on and soon I'll jump in the bath then go to bed... What fun...

Boyfriend and I are going to sign up to the gym in January. Free to me cuz I work there - boo ya!
Hopefully going to start skiing and snowboarding lessons too!

Anyway, I'm being moaned at for being on the computer and not watching Casper so must dash!

Smelly Christmas and a Crappy new year!!

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

G'ah!!

Such a boring day!

Boyfriend threw a hissy fit because he couldn't sleep so slept in the spare room and when I woke him up in the morning because he hadn't taken his alarm clock in with him, he spent the next 20 minutes slamming about (at 6:30am) and didn't say goodbye to me when he left - nice! Althought he did text me later apologising so I let him off!
Had to wait in for the stupid boiler man again, hopefully it's all sorted now, hot water and central heating at the same time instead of one or the other would be lovely for the winter months!!

Started making dinner (sausage casserole with cheesy mash and curly cabbage) only for boyfriend to get home and tell me he's not hungry so he picked at it then left it on the side.
Facebooked for a bit, had a bath and read a bit (Kate Thompson's Missing Link series - it's a children's series  but actually quite good!) then lay on my bed for a minute with a towel around my hair and winced as boyfriend started yelling at me about some crappy pictures on Facebook so rather than just asking me to remove them he starts a row about it, I silently delete the pictures (No biggy) but he carries on:
"Why did you put those on there?"
"No good will come of this!"
"Why are you defending your actions instead of apologising!?" I'll tell you why, because you've put me on the defensive by having a go at me!!!!!!!!!!!
Now he's gone off huffing and puffing like a sulking teenager, for goodness sake.
On an unrelated subject, my feet are cold.
Guess I should go cover his dinner and put it in the microwave/ fridge/bin and then start on the washing up...

Joy, a woman's work is never done and the pay is crap.

Thursday, 18 November 2010

Today

Oh lovely day, couldn't sleep because the boyfriend kicks about in his sleep, so read most of the night and finally got in about 6 hours when he settled. Boiler bloke was here by half 9 (joy) and with his ruddy face and box of tricks sat there tinkering and talking rubbish to nobody in particular.. Half 11, still waiting for him to finish..
Anyway.. Popped into town with a mate to shop for shoes and a dress for her birthday this evening which by the way, I'm not allowed to go to due to my friend being my boyfriend's ex of 8 years (?!) gutted about that but whatever, it's not worth another argument.
Sainsbury's for Marie-Rose sauce, damnit why are those jam doughnuts so tempting!? Ok I'll just get 5 instead of 10 (and eat them before boyfriend gets home mwahaha!!) It's too hard to diet even though I've got from 8.5 st to 9.5 st heading towards 10 and none of my clothes fit plus it's soooo close to Christmas... Maybe I should try to lose some before then so I can pig out for Christmas... It's a thought...(Note to self, make inspiration calender - i.e. Picture of myself at my slimmest on a month by month calender, different picture every month to inspire me to lose weight because I want to look like that again!)

Well.... I suppose it's time for dinner now (God, does my life revolve around food these days? - what's wrong with me???)
Prawn cocktail salad.... Jam doughnuts for dessert and it's a Thursday night but boyfriend has a day off tomorrow so a couple of vodka and cokes!!

Ahh.. Must feed the fish..